I am not the author of my life, but sometimes I act like I am. No matter how much you plan, you dream, you hope…you cannot control your circumstances and you cannot completely plan out your future (proverbs 19:21). That’s because the unexpected can happen.
The unexpected DOES happen.
And when it does, it comes like a tidal wave, it shakes you down to your knees and flips your world upside down.
Lately, things haven’t been going the way I’ve planned but I have a choice: I could play the victim and use it as a convenient excuse not to do good things, or I could grasp God’s waiting hand and allow the wave to make me stronger.
I had already known that God was in control and all-powerful, but I had yet to feel His wonderful peace. Yes, in the middle of all of my seizures, memory problems, confusion, and appointments…I have peace. I have been learning how to lean on God as my anchor: trusting Him with all of my fears, my frustrations, and especially with all of the unknowns.
I don’t know what the future holds, or even what tomorrow will bring but I do know that God is working all things together for my good (Romans 8:28). He has a master plan for my life. There may be things I don’t understand right now, but I’m not worried. I know all the pieces aren't there yet but one day it will all come together and everything will make sense. Someday I will see God’s amazing plan taking me places I never dreamed!
No matter how long it takes, when God works: it is always worth the wait.
The past year and a half have changed me. I’ve had both: the best days of my life and the worst, but I don’t think I would change it. The things going on in my brain really do just stink to go through and deal with, but I have hope, and I believe that God has an amazing plan for my life and the problems I’m going through right now are a part of that plan. I will just hold on to my anchor until the waves have passed.
